this grey spirit... yearning in desire

"Everything is more beautiful because we are doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We..."

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 03:24:28 -0400

“Everything is more beautiful because we are doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”

- Homer, The Iliad (via diveinme)

Love this boy <3

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 13:05:15 -0400

Love this boy <3

I was scared to revisit tumblr, because then that might make me feel as though I should write about...

Sat, 14 Jul 2012 00:07:55 -0400

I was scared to revisit tumblr, because then that might make me feel as though I should write about everything that is happening. Turns out Matt is extremely upset with me for deciding to move. He has been extremely hurt by the fact that I haven’t moved to be with him in Dekalb, and lonely. It breaks my heart to hear him cry. I want to wrap up his little body in a soft blanket and take care of him. So we might not survive me going. It is actually probably pretty likely, according to him. This is upsetting. So is the fact that my mom said she cried sometimes when thinking of me going. It has been so long since I said I would take the job. I definitely still want to do it and still want to go; I haven’t changed my mind. But this waiting and dragging it out is driving me insane. I am slowly crossing off the things that need to be done before I go. Not much left to do and yet still so much. I know when I leave I will cry and cry. I am not very good with change nor am I good with things stagnating. So I will make this change and cry a lot and then hopefully stop crying and have a good time. I will have a week with Matt before I leave. Hopefully we have a lot of sex and cuddles and wonderful moments. There are some magic morsels waiting for us, which always brings us so close together. He is a little baby bird. I have a lot of stationery and little cards and my wax and signet so I can send a lot of interesting things in the mail. I hope this isn’t a mistake. I won’t let it be a mistake.

retrograpes: Blue Girls

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 00:18:13 -0400

retrograpes:

Blue Girls

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Sat, 09 Jun 2012 02:45:05 -0400

"Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a..."

Wed, 06 Jun 2012 15:46:47 -0400

“Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched some way so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or that flower you planted, you’re there.”

- Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451

(via npr)

I made my first pie from scratch! The cherries are from a tree...

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 20:22:00 -0400

I made my first pie from scratch! The cherries are from a tree in the garden at work.

The b&b is family-run and the whole family is often there, usually dressed in full historical regalia. Yes, this is where I work. You can be jealous now.

Just booked my flight! Leaving July 30th! 17 hour layover in Hong Kong! Woo!

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 19:16:19 -0400

Just booked my flight! Leaving July 30th! 17 hour layover in Hong Kong! Woo!

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Sun, 03 Jun 2012 00:13:43 -0400

That feel when you diced hot peppers earlier in the evening and, with your fingers still burning,...

Thu, 31 May 2012 22:30:00 -0400

That feel when you diced hot peppers earlier in the evening and, with your fingers still burning, start to touch yourself.

magicalnaturetour: Snakes in Love by Giò Tarantini

Wed, 30 May 2012 17:52:20 -0400

magicalnaturetour:

Snakes in Love by Giò Tarantini

"I dreamed that my brain rose unfolded from my head like a flying carpet."

Wed, 30 May 2012 00:24:40 -0400

“I dreamed that my brain rose unfolded from my head like a flying carpet.”

- Alejandro Jodorowsky (via venusmilk)

venusmilk: This always reminds me of the mountain Ngranek

Wed, 30 May 2012 00:19:48 -0400

venusmilk:

This always reminds me of the mountain Ngranek

venusmilk: Arthur Rackham Rhine Maiden Lamenting,’The Rhinegold...

Wed, 30 May 2012 00:15:47 -0400

venusmilk:

Arthur Rackham

Rhine Maiden Lamenting,
’The Rhinegold and The Valkyrie’

magicalnaturetour: A little surprise. by ~Likos :)

Tue, 29 May 2012 23:34:42 -0400

magicalnaturetour:

A little surprise. by ~Likos :)

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Tue, 29 May 2012 23:14:29 -0400

aand I just accepted the job! I am so nervous. I hope I hope this doesn’t ruin what I have...

Tue, 29 May 2012 00:41:16 -0400

aand I just accepted the job!

I am so nervous. I hope I hope this doesn’t ruin what I have with little Matthew. He is getting all upset about it already. There is SO MUCH for me to do! I am really worried about breaking it to my bosses (feels weird to call them that) at work. They’ve taken me in like a member of their family and all of the other employees had to leave so I am all they have. I really hope someone responds to their craigslist ad so they can get at least one person trained before I go. I am incredibly nervous about telling them… so nervous about so much and also so excited!

So, I have been offered a job teaching English in Changhua city, Taiwan. It is an amazing job. I...

Mon, 28 May 2012 19:39:37 -0400

So, I have been offered a job teaching English in Changhua city, Taiwan. It is an amazing job. I would start August 1st. I have so so much to think about and prepare. Sooo much. I would be gone for my birthday. Eeee!

"When you’re creating your own shit, man, even the sky ain’t the limit."

Mon, 21 May 2012 23:14:28 -0400

“When you’re creating your own shit, man, even the sky ain’t the limit.”

- Miles Davis (via peltermag)

When you’re sleeping, there’s no lonely times.

Mon, 21 May 2012 21:56:37 -0400

When you’re sleeping, there’s no lonely times.